Writer without Readers.
Lonesome Monologue somewhere in the Digital Desert.
I don’t know, how about you, but it’s nothing special for me. I am a Digital Hermit, living on the vivid pulsating streets of Cyberspace, talking to everybody and to nobody. Probably just to myself.
Again, it’s nothing new. My digital life had begun 2004 with a German blog system, which doesn’t exist anymore. Even my presences in MySpace and Geocities outlived this blog platform named vladix.20six.de (Wayback Machine does Wonders).
It was almost obvious to not have readers there. I probably had 1–2 visitors, with whom I collabed in some creative fiction. And it was fun.
Then there was merzmensch.blog.de (already down). Here I was many years active. I had 27 subscribers. And 4–5 of them are still my best friends. There were long real-time discussions in comments about
Dadaism, Postmodern, Viral Marketing, Avant-Garde, Media Criticism, Art History, Kitsch, Politics, Heroes and even Elevators
This was fun! But then blog.de was gone.
I had then a Russian Blog in livejournal.com (system being too suspect for Russian Authorities because of too much criticism) and some Japanese blogs in Ameblo.jp. I wrote about everything. In my Russian Blog there were couple of readers, some of them even responded to my ideas. Then the wave of nationalism and populism overthrew the Russian part of this blog system and I had no fun anymore.
Then there was (and is) merzmensch.blogspot.com. Here I am writing about Viral Marketing, Alternate Reality Games, Video Games, Transmedial Storytelling, Works by JJ Abrams (including his Cloververse). I was addressed by Leonard Nimoy personally, was observed all the time by Paramount Pictures, covered many weird stories from Alternate Realities and even came to Wikipedia after my translation of Japanese Manga “Kishin” (prequell to Cloverfield) — this was fun. Even the fact of having practically no comments and only 16 subscribers wasn’t dog in the manger.
merzdadaco.hypotheses.org — In my Academic blog about Dadaism, Futurism, Postmodernism and Historian Avant-Garde I made some weird discoveries and researches (mysterious Karl Waldmann! — more about him here soon). And with 0 Subscribers and rare comments, it’s fun to practice there my lonesome researches.
So, till now I had around 17–18 blogs with almost no readers, writing frequently, even obsessively.
And now Medium.
Still keeping writing. Without any responses and comments. About relevant topics like Artificial Intelligence, Deep Learning, Transmedial Storytelling etc. And sometimes I ask myself: why do I do this?
Am I boisterous about topics? Am I wasting my time writing about things that may be eventually interesting just for me? Finding references, discovering connections, rattling at the door of world culture?
I hope, not. I hope, my humble contributions are being atoms in the huge Universe of interconnected culture, can change something. Can move some other atoms. Can cause global cultural metamorphosis.
This is not fishing for comments. This is just invitation to discuss. I am happy about every relevant reaction to my trains of thoughts.
But somewhere deep in my heart a pessimist whispers me, this blog post won’t be read again. By nobody. As always.